Akan Terus Berdiri..

Ya Allah..walau Kau duga lagi diriku, aku akan terus berdiri.Walau terasa mahu menangis, akan kuterus kuat.Aku berserah segalanya padaMu.Kau yang Maha Agung dan pemilik seluruh jasadku.Aku hanya hamba kerdil yang tak punya kuasa melawan takdirmu.Kau berilah aku peluang.Kau tunjukkanlah aku jalan.Aku lemah tanpa daya.Aku kaku tanpa kata.Aku sendu tanpa tangisan.

Ya Allah..pada siapa harus aku luahkan kekecewaan ini?Aku malu untuk berhadapan dengan mereka buat kali seterusnya.Teruk sangatkah aku?Dimana silapnya?Aku buntu.Sampai bila harus begini?Sampai bila harus kumenahan segala perasaan?Sampai bila harus aku melalui kekecewaan.Kurniakanlah padaku kekuatan.Kurniakan aku ketabahan.Kurniakan aku kecekalan.Aku semakin lemah

Ya Allah..aku cuba pasrah dalam dugaanMu.Aku membiarkan rasa itu.Namun, hatiku tidak mampu menahan.Hatiku tewas dalam peperangan perasaan.Hatiku gundah tiada kesudahan.

Ya Allah..aku akan terus berdiri.Menghadap segala dugaanMu.Namun janganlah terus menguji kekuatanku.Aku semakin tiada kudrat bertahan.Tiada apa lagi mampu kujadikan kekuatan.Aku mahu terus senyum dalam kekalutan ini.Aku mahu teruskan hidupku seperti suatu ketika dahulu.Bantulah aku Ya Allah..

Malu..Buat jahat jangan sekali!

Hari ni seperti biasa saya dan teman baik saya Makcik Najib pergilah menunaikan kemestian kami setiap pagi, JOGGING DI TAMAN JUBLI (sebab jogging saya dah semakin kurang berat).Memandangkan makcik Najib ni mengalami kecederaan pelvis (sebab jatuh katil..adoyaii, apa nih makcik) maka kami memulakan langklah pertama kami dengan berjalan.Sambil berjalan menikmati keindahan pagi dengan kicauan sang burung, kami bercerita tentang perkara menarik yang terjadi semalam.

Alkisahnya, rutin biasa kami setiap malam adalah mengadap YM bersama dua lagi sahabat yang jauh diperantauan Annas (Jepun) dan Anis (Perancis).Tapi semalam telah berlaku sesuatu yang sangat menarik.Semuanya bermula apabila aku dah tak ada kerja.Menunjukkan kerajinan dengan edit gambar Annas letak misai tebal ala-ala Datuk K.Annas gelak tak ingat dunia.Then aku edit pulak gambar Anis dengan misai juga.Motifnya?Sebab kawan aku yang berdua ni sangatlah fanatik dengan Siti Nurhaliza.Berebut-rebut nak dekat Siti (Siti dah kawen pun diaorang ni masih nak berebut)

Nak dijadikan cerita aku rajinlah pulak pergi buat poster dengan gambar bermisai dua rakanku itu.Annas pun makin menjadi apabila dia pun menunjukkan sisi kreatifnya dengan mengedit gambar tersebut dan upload dalam FB.Habis member-member kena tag sebab kekonon kena mengundi Datuk mana yang layak jadi Rival-To-Be Datuk K.Haihh..layankan je laa...

Hasil kreativiti Annas @ Datuk W

Berbalik semula kepada peristiwa jogging pagi tadi.Dah selesai sejam kami beriadah, kami pun nak balik rumah.Bila sampai dekat kereta, pintu kereta pulak tak boleh buka.Walau sudah Najib tekan remote, kereta masih berkunci.So Najib guna cara manual nak buka pintu.Pun tak boleh juga.Kami berdua dah cuak.Tetiba Najib pergi ke belakang kereta dan cakap "Awak, kita salah kereta ni!" Oh tidakkkkk...memalukan betul.Kami cepat-cepat pergi dekat kereta yang betul,masuk dalam kereta dan gelak dengan kuat sekali.Tebal muka I masa tu..huhu..Dah la masa memula sampai dekat kereta yang salah tadi tu, saya siap tegur lagi dekat bahagian plat kereta tu kotor.Kenapa tak perasan masa tu?!

Sebelum balik, aku nak beli daun kesom nak buat asam pedas hari ni.Pergi Econsave tak buka lagi so kami pun pergi la ke Taman Delima.Pergi dekat satu pasar kecil ni.Dapatlah beli daun kesom,bunga kantan dengan limau nipis.Masuk je dalam kereta bila Najib on radio, tau tak lagu apa yang kami dengar?Lagu Rossa, Hati Yang Kau Sakiti.Lagu ni Najib bagi dekat Anis.Anis bagi dekat saya dengan Annas.So semenjak dua menjak ni memang kerap pula la lagu ni berkumandang.Apa lagi lepas dengar lagu tu, teruslah saya meroyan dalam kereta.KENAPA?!!!Arghh...memang betul-betul hati yang kau sakiti.

Dalam tengah hari macam tu, aku tengok tv3.Masa tu Wanita Hari Ini baru habis.Lagu yang diputarkan?YA, percaya atau tidak Hati Yang Kau Sakiti by Rossa.Oh mengapa???Terus sms najib dan najib cakap ini benar-benar penangan Sti Nurhaliza dan Rossa.Tak cukup dengan tu, petang Najib sms mengadu cermin mata dia dah bengkok.Katanya memang KUMENANGIS (sebahagian daripada lirik lagu Rossa) betul hari ini.Banyak dugaan yang terjadi daripada pagi hingga ke petang.

Jadi, adakah semuanya berpunca daripada kenakalan kami terhadap Annas dan Anis?Sebab Najib adalah pencetus idea kalau dua kawan kami tu ada misai macam Datuk K macam mana agaknya.Saya pula pelaksana kata-kata Najib dengan gambar edit tu.Haruslah kami mohon ampun dan maaf.Daulat ke kawan-kawan saya ni?

Tekanan..Rasa..Gelora Melanda..

Semuanya serba tidak kena.Rasa ini sering memburu aku setiap masa.Mengapa?Aku telah cuba melepaskan diri daripada terus dibelenggu.Ternyata aku belum mampu berlari daripada terus menghadapi kenyataan yang sebenarnya sudah berada di hadapan mata aku.Sesuatu yang complicated dan merunsingkan jiwa..

Aku tak mampu untuk bersuara kepada sesiapa kerana aku sudah tahu akan jawapan mereka.Sabarlah..itu dugaan..Itu yang akan aku dengar.Bukan aku tak sudi mendengar kata-kata itu, namun fahamilah ada kekusutan yang tak terurai saat ini.Aku mahu meluahkan pada insan yang hanya akan setia mendengar dan membiarkan aku melepaskan apa yang terbuku.Tapi siapa?Ya aku punya banyak teman rapat.Aku mampu berkongsi dengan mereka.Tapi ini persoalan lain.Persoalan yang aku rasa kalau aku luah ramai yang akan terkejut.

Jangan menilai aku dengan luaran sahaja.Nilailah aku dengan apa yang aku miliki.Dan bukan juga kerana paras kejadianku.Aku syukuri dengan nikmat yang diberi.Walau rasa ini membuatkan aku hilang dan hanyut, aku tetap mahu wujud sebenarnya.Mengertikah kalian akan apa yang cuba aku berikan?Ayat yang kususun mungkin mengundang keliru.Hakikatnya, aku sedang diburu sesuatu.Oh bukan satu.Banyak perkara memburu aku.Bagaimana?

Aku cuba menghadapi dengan tenang.Dengan senyuman yang sering aku pamerkan pada khalayak ramai.Palsukah senyuman aku?Namun derita yang kutanggung hanya aku yang rasa.Andai aku menangis, janganlah anggap aku lemah.Aku menghamburkan tangisan untuk meringankan tekanan yang sedang aku galas.Andai aku ketawa dan banyak bicara, jangan anggap aku sedang meniti bahagia.Ada yang aku simpan jauh dihatiku dan bukan untuk dijadikan tatapan sesiapa.

LIKE HOW THE STARS GUIDES THE SHIP IN THE OCEAN, I HOPE SOMEONE WILL GUIDE ME BACK TO MY HOME

99 Facts about Guys

Salam..huhu, agak sibuk dengan majlis perkahwinan sepupuku memandangkan aku menjadi TISU GIRL (gadis yang ditugaskan melipat tisu dan mengisi tisu ke dalam bekas di atas meja santapan tetamu apabila habis).Tugas mencabar sebab nak kena pusing dewan tu setiap masa.Namun itu semua akan kuceritakan kemudian (kemudian tu entah bile yer.bergantung kepada kerajinan juga namun insyaAllah..)

Terbaca benda ni dekat notes FB my best friend, Enan.Masa baca satu per satu, mindaku turut membuat analisa tersendiri.Dah lama tak buat analisa kan?Jom kita menganalisa 99 fakta lelaki yang perempuan patut tahu (mungkin boleh digunakan dalam kehidupan seharian anda)

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. they prefer neat and presentable girls.(Benarkah bagai ditulis?Jika benar, pasti ramai wanita yang not good looking but have a neat and presentable style akan tersenyum.aku sekali..hehe)
   
2. Guys hate other flirts. (Oh really?)
   
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards. (So true!!!Argh..mereka akan melupakan awak setelah awak menabur budi terhadap mereka.Buakn minta dibalas tapi jangan layan girls macam tu ok!)
   
4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is. (Should i follow the way you thingking my boy?Aiyohh..dah terang-terang lelaki dan perempaun itu berbeza.Mengapa tidak kita menerima cara pemikiran masing-masing dan belajar sesuaikan diri?)
   
5. Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering. (Perempuan pun selalu juga tanya macam ni kan?)
   
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. (Saya sangat teruja membaca kenyataan ini namun saya macam tidak mampu mempercayainya.Perlukah saya tanya kepada kawan-kawan lelaki saya?)
   
7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics. (All I can say..girls do this too!!!)
   
8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile. (SAYA JUGA!!!senyuman lelaki mampu mencairkan saya.Sebab tu kalau saya marah atau bad mood, saya akan kembali seperti biasa dengan senyuman lelaki yang paling menawan.Hahaha..)
   
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention. (So true again!!!)
   
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.(Kenapa?Cemburu yer?Hehehe..tapi perempuan juga tak suka kalau lelaki bandingkan dirinya dengan bekas teman wanita kamu tau.)
    
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.(Ni pun saya suka sebab kalau awak benar-benar sukakan saya, teruslah jumpa dengan ibubapa saya.Itu lebih menampakkan awak benar-benar serius dalam perhubungan tersebut.)
    
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! but do not generalise
13. Guys cry!!! (Oh poor my boy!But I still can accept you cause I also cry to express my feelings)
    
14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.(Ya, yang ini saya mengakuinya.Sekali lelaki diprovok, saksikanlah betapa dia akan memberontak!)
    
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back. (Really?)
    
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. (Tapi saya suka juga buat macam ni.Kononnya nak acah-acah je)
    
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands……yeh rite – Whatever. (Memang pun..tapi ingat to all muslimah..HARAM kalau perempuan sentuh lelaki bukan muhrimnya tanpa berlapik!Mind that girls)
    
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow”. So true.
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
    
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.(Kalau macam tu takpe la..tapi kalau lama-lama dok berfikir pasal girl tu nanti boleh jatuh suka pula..kan?eheheh)
    
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.(Yup!!!)
    
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.(Masalahnya saya susah nak percaya apabila ada yang berkata begitu.Dengar boleh percaya tidak.Mengapakah saya begitu?)
    
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.(HAHAHAHAH...)
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.(Betul ke?Wah I sukaaa...)
    
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.(Ok, lepas ni I takkan memberi nasihat yang panjang lebar untuk kawan lelaki I dan hanya akan mendengar sahaja.)
    
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
    
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.(But WHY???!!!)
    
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. ……..sumtimes.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.(Andai ada kawan lelakiku yang ada rahsiaku, sila pegang amanah anda dengan baik yer)
    
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!……very true.(Sebab tu I kena kurangkan berat ker?)
    
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!! (Ok boy!)
    
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed P**** with their girlfriends…..sumtimes depends wen they want sumat.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”……sumtimes.(But could I stay next to you and sit quietly until you are ok?)
    
59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him….very important.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.(APA?takkan I nak kena bagitau dekat you pulak.Malu la I!)
    
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and football, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake. ….they love u regardless.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!……true but only wen the guys are ready 2be settled down.
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.(SEBAB?)
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed by you or he’s criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.(A good fact to all girls..We should do this next next.Tiada peluang ketiga untukmu..)
    
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.(Aiyoh..parah la macam tu.Dah jadi cinta 3 segi nanti.)
    
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.(Oh boy..whenever I hear this from you next time, I will say "YOU TIPU JER..")
    
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair! (Eh selalunya guys tak suka barang mereka disentuh tapi hal rambut tu they still can consider it)
    
97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.(Habis tu kalau 100 lelaki cakap macam tu, ramai la orang suka dekat I ek?Suka tak pe jangan jatuh cinta sudah..Naya I nanti..)
    
98. Guys hate girls who overreact. ……sumtimes.
99. Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.